You love troons tho, what's the issue? You simp for them daily.
Just accept you are a masculine woman, some people are into that I suppose. Jules seems to enjoy letting you play the man in your fake lesbian relationship, it makes her feel more dainty and feminine in comparison I assume.
You don't have a single feminine quality, it's not just your antisocial personality. You're not kind, compassionate, nurturing, empathetic, soft, delicate, affectionate, alluring, sweet, sexy, emotionally intelligent, cooperative, gentle, caring, sensitive or anything else commonly associated with feminity.
You are aggressive, angry, relish in violence and destruction instead of creation, uncaring, unkind, easy to anger, very low EQ (and IQ), perverted, cold, hard, vain and braggadocios. Very masculine.